Happy Saturday before Thanksgiving. I still don’t know where November went but alas it’s pretty much over. It snowed the other night so of course I sat by the window and watched it. The weather is finally getting cold and honestly, I’m kind of loving it. I don’t love being cold, but I love not sweating so I’ll take it. Looking cute when you walk into work sweating from the heat is hard. Haha. I still have to sort out a Christmas tree, but I’ll take care of that this week. I’m super excited to see the apartment lit up with all the happy Christmas lights. Multicolor of course because there’s nothing better.
Jax came home
the other week for the first time in the 15 months since he passed. It was just
as emotional as you imagine but I think I’m mostly used to having my tiny
fluffy bestie in an urn. Well as much as someone can. I started working on
finishing his memorial stand and had an idea to hand make his name to go on
top. Ya girl is not crafty, so the thought is gonna have to count on that one.
Naw, it’s cute but not the most skilled and that’s okay.
On the mental
health front things are going well. I’m mostly used to the Invega, and the
hallucinations have really reduced which is fantastic. I still have some which
is expected because brains do brain. I did have to start taking it in the
morning because it was doing the insomnia thing. Which of course is bad so I’ll
probs cycle again here soon. But after that it should be smooth sailing, which
is a big relief. I don’t so much mind the schizo/schizo affective diagnosis I’m
just glad everything is becoming routine. It’s been a long mental health road
but it’s dope AF that it’s all treated and good now.
People are
going to start doing the things I’m thankful for thing. To celebrate their
accomplishments and what not in 2024. I survived and that’s good enough for me
honestly. It was a neat year, and a lot of really great things happened but mostly
I just survived. I’m good with that. If you went out and kicked life’s butt, I
hope you celebrate it. I hope you always find time to congratulate yourself and
everyone around you. Just do me a favor and please don’t post pictures of raw
birds and plates of food. We’re all gonna be eating the same thing so skipping
that would be great. I’m actually not eating Thanksgiving food for Thanksgiving.
Or at least I’mma try not to because pizza on Thanksgiving sounds so much
better. Not just any pizza, homemade pizza. I mean lets be real people deserve
to have the time off work to spend it with their families.
If you’re
black Friday shopping, I hope it’s from your phone. I’ve never understood black
Friday shopping personally, but you do you. It’s definitely everyone breathing
on each other season and I don’t really want to participate in that. Though if
I don’t get covid in December it will be a Christmas miracle. I now have a 3
for 3 record with getting covid in December. Ugh. Actually, how bout I never
get covid again because I’ve had it so many times. There should be like an
automatic limit because it’s gnarly and I don’t wanna. But regardless I’m sure
I’ll be out an about this holiday season and probably get sneezed on. Which
speaking of Christmas how’s everyone’s budgeting going? I’d kinda like black Friday
discounts to be on utilities and groceries because omg. Like yea sure I want to
pay half my income just to eat vegetables. Haha. Oh well, we’ll get through it
even if it’s a pain in the butt.
Michael is
indeed a normal 21-year-old, and his adventures are hilarious. I don’t know
what is cooler in life than watching your kids grow up. When they’re little you
wonder what they’ll be like as adults. Then you hit the dreaded teenage years,
I’ve heard, mine never got there, I swear it’s coming though, right? Then they
have the audacity to grow up and become adults. I’ve always raised my kids to
be okay even if I’m no longer here. But Michael took the independence to
another level the week before last. Homie went and had his wisdom teeth pulled,
BY HIMSELF, like who does that? My hero I swear. I was sad that he didn’t need
Momma anymore but also in awe of his level of badass.
Tori, that
apple did not fall far from the tree. She’s a small version of me and it’s just
as maddening and cool as you can imagine. Christian, who the hell gave him the
right to be 27 years old already? He’s the OG cool kid and the one I learn the
most from still to this day. They were just small five seconds ago and now they’re
adults. It’s a really cool experience and though I’m often told way more than I
need to know. The TMI struggle is real, haha. It’s still the coolest thing ever
to have grown kids you genuinely like as people. I’m a lucky human and I am
very aware of it.
Okay it’s
probably time for a nap, I got up stupid early for no good reason. Maybe today
I’ll start hacking away at the 100s of DMs I currently have. If I haven’t responded
I'll get to it eventually. Those suckers have become overwhelming, I guess that’s
the price of procrastination, but I’ll get to them at some point. Hopefully
long before it becomes 200s of DMs because then I might just give up and forget
about them altogether. Kidding, I think. 😊
Go forth and
be the amazing goober you know you are. I hope you all have a happy and healthy
Thanksgiving holiday. Just don’t go be a meanie after the turkey cause the
economy is hard and everyone needs all the bargains.
~Until next
time, be good to each other.~